University Life (My POV)

University - Friends - Relevance?

My university life was a hell of a roller coaster ride. Despite being absolutely free on weekends and at night [unless when a bunch of assignments suddenly fell down from the sky on the eleventh hour (this attitude of mine still haven't changed since secondary)].

I have absolutely no idea what I learned in class, honestly, (well, most of the time). I would blame my eyesight for that; although I am wearing spectacles, yet I still can't see what's written under my nose (exaggerate, obviously).

When I first got my UPU result, I was shocked because I did not even apply for this course and I had to think deeply whether I did even put this university as one of my choices (apparently I did, as the eleventh out of the twelve choices T_T)

"I don't even know what I'll do if I enrol in this course", I thought back then.

But the course itself proved me wrong, I know what this will lead to after a lot of Google-ing and consulting with my family and friends. I gained motivation to pursue my studies in this course but the only thing I lack was a friend. "HOW COULD I NOT EVEN HAVE A SINGLE FRIEND I KNEW WHO GOT THE SAME UNIVERSITY AS ME?" It was like a deja-vu, the feeling came on hitting me like when I got my PLKN 'invitation', 'congratulatory result' *eyes rolling 360 degrees*. I know I should be grateful and proud because there are some of my friends who did not get a place in IPTA. I do feel sorry for them and I realised that it was all about luck (and rezeki) that matters.

Soon after, I found out that I actually got a friend who got the same university and the same course as mine! Me, being myself, as I can't live without a person I know, contacted him (wait, I mean who would actually let the chance of dragging a friend of yours through hell together with you? *smirks* I mean that's what friends are for, right? :D ) and persuaded him to enrol into this course together. I was quite worried and almost lost hope when he said that he might considered for an IPTS T_T, but luck was on my side once again and he finally decided to pursue his studies on the same track as mine, hoyeahh!

-----31st August 2014-----

Celebrated merdeka day at KK's house, family and neighbourhood gathering, reminiscing old photos, captured new family photos, farewell, sad stuff, fireworks, packing and dozed off in worries of tomorrow.

-----1st Sptember 2014-----

The day has come. The beginning of a plot-twist of my life. Packing finale and wallaaa~ I'm in Johore. LUCK was on my side again, my room mates were all in the same course as mine. This semester woudn't get any better. Everyone was the same age as mine, and I hope everyone could get along well. I WAS SUCH A LONER BACK THEN, and I craved desperately for a friend and my first female friend was a girl who her bed was the closest to mine. 'She seemed like a decent girl', said my judgemental self as we were shaking hands, after her mother told us (my mother, grandaunt and I) that her father had left this world when she was fourteen. I felt sorry and pity for her and that statement had made me burst into tears (secretly) when I bid my dad goodbye as he wanted to wait for my mum and grandaunt in the car while they helped me settled in my room. I was too busy dressing up and preparing myself for the event they planned for the orientation that I did not send them off properly. On the bright side, I managed to get distracted from spilling more beads of tears like I did at matriculation (muhahahahahaha, that was embarrassing. I did not even shed a single tear when they send me off for PLKN pfttt *eyes rolling*).

So, the one and only female friend I had was my room mate and although she had a schoolmate who clings to her every now and then, I still cling to her like a lost child with wide puppy eyes. I did met some new friends who was supposed to be in the same class as me. They even walk around together and even have meals together but me, being myself, chose my room mate over my new friends because I thought that I should nurture this friendship because we are room mates so it is easier for us to see each other (are you kidding me, I see you almost every single hour of the day, not that I did not like it but uhh.. you'll see why).

I really appreciate this friend of mine a lot because she is not selfish with informations. Without her, I would be lost in many aspects; how to buy books from seniors, availability and alternative courses, events and clubs.

Unfortunately, every good thing must have it's consequences. 

As days and weeks passed by, an incident occurred which involved in members' participation in a group work.

I saw her leaving the room with her laptop and some books and she told my other room mates (except me) that she was going to sleep at her friend's room to do some work. The next day, after I had finished my class in the morning, as I was walking back to my room, I met her on the road and asked her where she was going, and she said that she was off to do some assignments. As I was back in my room, I switched on the laptop to start off with the video assignment that we had to do. Little did I know that my friend had went off with her friend to do the video assignment that we were supposed to do WITHOUT TELLING ME. I mean, I was FREE the entire night! Probably I was watching some random videos or Attack On Titans anime at that moment. I thought that we, room mates, should have an advantage on communication but no, I was wrongly proved.

Honestly, I had to say it was partly my fault because I did not participate in the Whatsapp conversation they had but so was her!! Her phone was disabled at that time, I understood her situation, but how can she knew what was going on but not me and the other group members. The worst thing was they said that they had nearly done the video without our help (which of course I felt bad because I did not contributed any) but no -_- I was being lied. Again. They were nowhere near done and I had to complete half of the video which was supposed to be done by me and another friend but she was off busy with her Japanese quiz whatsoever, and so I had to do it all by myself and I did that in a mere couple of hours -_- 

That was when I realised that being the victim of the truth was painful, and I despise liars.

To Be Continued...

Semester ONE Break

~Bismillahirrahmanirrahim~

It's Two-O-One-Five!

I'm Twenty Already :'D

My birthday went pretty well on the road, yeah yeah.

I am very sure that my 5 weeks of 'holiday' are definitely not enough for me to carry out my plans that I had in mind during my whole first semester of my degree programme.

Yeah as the Malays had said, 'Bagi betis, nak peha', but that's not the case. I tend to 'procrastinate' to do my desired task; knitting, finishing off my stack of unread novels, baking, cooking, unpack (should I even do that?).

It has almost been 3 weeks since I got back home and, gosh, haha what have I been doing? Sleeping is the most essential thing to do, of course, not until my dreadful eyes give signals to my brain for the umpteenth time to stop straining them in front of the screen in the dark.

The bad thing is, whenever I sleep, the world goes black and before I know it, it is already morning and I know that it is time for me to wake up. Sadly, some demon had put glue on my bed before I went to sleep that night and it took me few more hours of sleep for me to actually loosen myself from the (imaginary) glue :P

Holidays may be vary to some people but who cares. My kind holiday is staying at home, probably surfing the net or watch some dramas, movies, shows or anime on my bed (or wherever, doesn't matter, as long as I get a strong wifi connection); I couldn't be more happier.

Also, I feel like a very important person now in my family as I can, ehemm, drive 

*insert confetti* :D

So far, I haven't travel out of my housing area yet but I shall soon *winks*

Wishlist:

*I wish emoticons exists in Blogspot*

-could express my emotions better with that heheh

Okay, enough of my journey of 'Semester One Break', now I shall talk (type) about "MY LIFE IN UNIVERSITY" (urghh)

I guess that word in the bracket sums up quite a bit of what I am about to write in my next post.

Hopes: To hang out with my friends more often because, me, being home, is a rare opportunity once I start with my next semester =.=

Time

Time.

They say that time flies when you are having fun.

Am I having fun? 

Fun.

Can only be felt once the feeling fades.
Fret.
Can only be felt when you regret of doing something,

You know that you can't turn back time.

And the process repeats.

Blue Day

If a colour could be a day

Then I would choose blue

Don't ask me why

It came out of the blue.

  I wore a blue T-shirt today

  Matched with a trousers in light blue

  Sat on the bed with my pillow and blanket-hurray!

  Which is of course also dyed in blue.

I realised this as I was reading a famous book

No other than the frail Augustus Waters who acted so cool

Why oh why with that smile so crooked?

Yes, the cover of the book was defenitely a calm colour, too cool.

  Apologise me for shifting the topic to the toilet

  But I must say that my toothbrush, shampoo and soap are also blue

  Do not worry, but not to forget

  My towel, my body lotion are also diamond blue.

If you ask me what would be my favourite colour

Everyone knows it is blue

Except dark blues and sapphire blues for all that matter

You should know, but who are you?

  I am an amateur in this poem writing thing

  Who gave me the inspiration?

  Well Hazel Grace and Gus

  But sadly, they don't really exist.

Hashtagmidnightcrap :)

-Writtenbyyourstrulyme

Wall Hugging

It's official!

I am no longer a 'budak PJ' and i'm gonna miss the title. It makes me who I became today. The school, the surroundings, the facilities, the pamperness, not to mention the danger nowadays.

So, in this post, i'm gonna talk about moving from a family's home to your own house, which would definitely have its pros and cons.

Pros

-new room, Yay! (But smaller)

-new furniture (hand downs are considered new to me as long as it is still in good shape)

-new arrangements

-new feel (heheh)

Conclusion everything new la kan excluding beds, shelves, etc..

Cons

-get rid of the most sentimental stuff! :( (junks, small unnesasary things which brings you 1001 memories)

-the thought of not seeing your ceilings, walls, floors ever again and the scribblings you made on them during childhood days.. (Makes me wanna hug them tight)

-conflict. Yes. I mean conflicts. (Especially when not every single family member is not going to leave the house)

-old toys, clothes, tudungs, books, and urghhh everything! Takkan nak bawak but takkan nak tinggal je T.T

Buku matriks la especially takkan nak buang i mean i bought it and tak guna sangat but noooo not gonna throw it away because I love science but ain't gonna take up science in the future <lololz> (Ye ke ni)

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A piece of advice to all of you people out there.

Never, ever, ever be on bad terms with your family and I am going to emphasise on siblings here.

Siblings should have the advantage to not fight because they

-are the people who are the closest to you and should understand you better than anyone else

-should lend their ears to one another because who else will (besides friends, referring to family issues here) 

-lives below the same roof, came from the same parents (have equal rights)

-are the first person who should lend a helping hand, a shoulder to cry on everytime especially on desperate measures 

*I might not be right, but this is my own personal perception*

-based on a true story

24th Ramadhan now

And someone is coming baaaaack!

Sometimes I think I'm overreactive because he doesn't give a s***

Come on la, I had been wanting a baby brother and there I got it (2, alhamdulillah) and before I knew it he is all grown up, apparantly in transition state of changing into a young man.

And this one baby brother is so clingy.

-XOXO 

MH17

~Innalillahi wa innailahi rajiun~

2 days ago, 17th July 2014, there was another tragedy involving a Malaysian aircraft. 

The aircraft, MH17 was on its was to Kuala Lumpur from Amsterdam was said to be flying over the Ukranian airway and was shot down by a missile.

The aircraft exploded as witnesses saw huge black smoke emerged from the crash scene. 

The plane had crashed on the borderline of Ukraine and Russia.

This was briefly the news that I comprehend and gathered from watching the news and through the Twitter social media yesterday.

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This is the world we are living in right now. With the pending unsolved mysterious case of MH370 which is still lingering on the back of our minds, we have to accept the fact that mishaps happens anytime and anywhere in the world as the Malay saying goes, 'Malang tidak berbau'.

I would also like to point out that this unforgettable tragedy happens during the Holy month of Ramadhan.

The footage from the news really striked me badly as we can see human bodies scattered around the burnt area and sadly, we can do nothing about it.

Sorry, I was just pondering around and I don't really know what to say.

Condolence to the victims's family. I sure wouldn't imagine if someone I knew was in the aircraft.

* Al-Fatihah *

Oh and mind me if the informations are all wrong or inaccurate, but I heard that they said that the aircraft, Boeing 777 (?) was 17 years old (17 July 1997-17 July 2014)

Lastly, condolence to the human beings in Gaza that had their house, (I would say their whole country) being bombed and innocent family members were killed cruelly in front of your very own eyes. Yes, and yet, we still are not capable of doing anything to help our brothers and sisters who are currently suffering and are having sleepless nights; concerning about their house that could be shot or bomb anytime. 

It's Ramadhan!

Well, the 12th Ramadhan to be precise.

Hopes and my To-Do list:

-Khatam Al-Quran in Ramadhan month (the one thing that I have been longing to do and failed miserably T.T)

-Restrain myself from reading/watching/going to unbeneficial materials/places (which I had totally failed in this one)

-Read/do only productive things like motivational and daily chores (as if that would happen, I mean come on, Liyana and fictions are inseparable)

Okay, before I'll sit in the corner of my room and cringe about my failures I think I'll better stop this list.

Stopping..... Okay.

So now, this is really a miraculous event because someone (...) is updating her blog! Yay!

So I guess it is official cuz Liyana only updates her blog out of total boredom and only after midnight. Yeah..

Anyway, I am now having this conflict of whether to take architecture or psychology which is totally a distinct course from one another. I had omitted medic, dentistry and Tesl because haha, seriously, I don't have the guts anymore on those stuff.

Okay, the sole reason why I gave life to this blog once again because, my vocabulary is alarmingly deteriorating! When I was rummaging through my trash, (well my school books) I couldn't believed that I used such words (bombastic ones) (in essays whatsoever) that I had no idea what it meant anymore. I realised now that my choices of words are now limited and I had to check the dictionary for words that I had frequently used before, because I had less confidence in using it now.

..THIS IS SERIOUS..

Confessions. Dun.dun.dun.

I did a lot of reading during this holiday (Fanfictions (heheh) and novels) but when I came across some words I didn't know, I did the worst.mistake.ever.

I skipped the words/assume their meanings and I did not look for the actual meanings from the 'precious' dictionary!!!

Well, that wasn't too critical, was it? I don't know.

But lesson learnt, look for their meanings as you never know, that you might stumble across the words again in near future and you will regret for not knowing the proper usage of the word when you crucially need to use it.

*but it will just destroy the moment, buang masa kena ambik dictionary (dlm phone pun ada wtv) then cari maksud then baru nak faham ayat tu, its killin' the time and the mood* 

Said the tiny voice inside my head. Hehe.

You know what, I just noticed that my 'isi' is totally 'terpesong' from my tajuk. Haha okay whatever.

5 a.m now.

It's sahur time.

I hope my dear future self will continuously start to update this blog again so that umm *thinking hard of what to say* this blog wouldn't be abandoned and filled with spiderwebs and cockroaches and all sort of animals and moses that will inhibit an abandoned blog.

FAREWELL!

*oh and i'm back with driving classes (urghh had to pay so much because of the expiration)

Ciao people~!