Have you ever went through a situation where you unconsciously stop, think and planned your path on your journey of life? Well, now I know I have, after realising the fact that what I planned in the future might not turn out as it is expected.
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My thoughts:
Few Weeks Before Checking
Well. I don't mind whether i'm going to get it or not. So it's 50/50 :)
Right Before Checking
Nahh, I don't think I'm going to be selected. Besides, there's this 'formula' that had 'proven' to be reliable.
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When This Page Lies In Front Of My Eyes:
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NOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! Yes, I screamed and I bet the whole house heard. My mum said that my whole face turned red at that time.
I could see all those waves crashing, thunderstorm striking, wind whirling, howling.. <--Merepek dah tu...
I shed a tear and stormed off upstairs to my room and I shed more.. In the room, I was thinking about what would I do If I were to get bullied and all sort of negative stuff that people usually say. Then, I dozed off because I was physically and mentally tired as I had not slept during the night before. Oh yeah, and I had a bad day at tuition just before I got to know the news..
After I woke up
At the dining table, shed some more tears, then I was okay. Yeah, my mindset was changed tremendously after my mum had read about her friend's blog about her daughter who went for the National Service last year. She said the food wasn't all that bad, in fact, it was delicious and they were fed 6 times per day! According to her, the government had spent RM50 for each and every participants' meals, every single day. Okay, to me that's lavish enough and we would actually getting fatter instead of thinner..
Now
I couldn't believe this myself. I can't wait to go!
Hahaha, sebab nak pegang senapang je sebenarnya. Actually, I'm quite okay with it. I just cried because I had to leave home, my family, my friends, my electronics stuffs for 3 months! Sigh..
But after I think about this further, I think this is the beginning of my challenges in life. Go for it Liyana! :D
I'm grateful Ya Allah, for choosing and inviting me out of my friends to go on this wonderful event to experience this opportunity of life that I would never have the chance to experience if I was not selected.
