2nd Aniversary..

28 December 2011

We (my family and I), had watched a movie entitled 'Drag Me To Hell' and another story called 'Colours Of Magic' or something..(I couldn't really recall the title).

I was really sleepy at that time that I didn't even watched the full movie. So I went to bed.

Few hours later, which was at 4am, my mum went to wake us up in our room. I was shocked that the first word that came out from her mouth was, "Liyana, bangun cepat, Tah dah takde." With her teary eyes, she went straight back downstairs. I simply couldn't believe her words at all. I was surrounded with all sorts of emotion; shock, sad, bewildered, regret, loss and those painful thoughts brought me on my toes straight downstairs to my deceased grandmother's room.

As a was approaching downstairs, I couldn't believe my eyes either. An ambulance was right there, being parked at my very own porch. This ambiance was somehow familiar to me as my grandmother had passed out several times before, but I had to accept the fact that I had to faced that moment for the last time.

My feet quickly brought me to the room, and there she was, lying on the bed, eyes closed. I had never even seen at least once with my very own eyes that her condition seemed to be the worse. No words could describe the moment me and my family was facing at that very moment as we were very shocked of the current situation.

She was a cheerful woman the very previous day, as she shows no sign of sickness. She was alert and very conscious until the very end. There was nothing more I could say that there is no one, not even a single soul could take over her place, forever.

Today, I dreamed of her. I was crying while saying "Liyana rindu Tah." She just nodded. I hope she knows that I really love her very much as I had done bad things to her countless of time in the past. I really wish that I could build a time machine to go back to the past so that I can really sort things out with her like asking for forgiveness at least.

It is a sad thing that humans are truly appreciated and remembered only when they are gone, because we, ourselves took things for granted that they still have a long path to look on. Pay attention to your loved ones before it's too late. Do not stop giving affection to them. As we lived, less minutes will be available for us to spend with others. Appreciate and live your life as productive as it can be.... Or u'll regret, like me...

Lastly,
Tah, Liyana sayang Tah!!!!!!!!
-28 December 2009