But Sometimes, Fate and Your Dreams Will Collide

Have you ever went through a situation where you unconsciously stop, think and planned your path on your journey of life? Well, now I know I have, after realising the fact that what I planned in the future might not turn out as it is expected.

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My thoughts: 


Few Weeks Before Checking
Well. I don't mind whether i'm going to get it or not. So it's 50/50 :)

Right Before Checking
Nahh, I don't think I'm going to be selected. Besides, there's this 'formula' that had 'proven' to be reliable.
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When This Page Lies In Front Of My Eyes:

NOOOOOOOOoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! Yes, I screamed and I bet the whole house heard. My mum said that my whole face turned red at that time.

I could see all those waves crashing, thunderstorm striking, wind whirling, howling.. <--Merepek dah tu...

I shed a tear and stormed off upstairs to my room and I shed more.. In the room, I was thinking about what would I do If I were to get bullied and all sort of negative stuff that people usually say. Then, I dozed off because I was physically and mentally tired as I had not slept during the night before. Oh yeah, and I had a bad day at tuition just before I got to know the news..

After I woke up

At the dining table, shed some more tears, then I was okay. Yeah, my mindset was changed tremendously after my mum had read about her friend's blog about her daughter who went for the National Service last year. She said the food wasn't all that bad, in fact, it was delicious and they were fed 6 times per day! According to her, the government had spent RM50 for each and every participants' meals, every single day. Okay, to me that's lavish enough and we would actually getting fatter instead of thinner..

Now

I couldn't believe this myself. I can't wait to go!

Hahaha, sebab nak pegang senapang je sebenarnya. Actually, I'm quite okay with it. I just cried because I had to leave home, my family, my friends, my electronics stuffs for 3 months! Sigh..

But after I think about this further, I think this is the beginning of my challenges in life. Go for it Liyana! :D

I'm grateful Ya Allah, for choosing and inviting me out of my friends to go on this wonderful event to experience this opportunity of life that I would never have the chance to experience if I was not selected.

Canon In D (Pachelbel)

Hi! So, mid-terms over, holidays past in a blink of an eye, glad that sports day had gone too, and now all is left to do is just firing up myself and raise to the challenge of SPM! Hoyeahh!! Okay, forget about SPM for a while, I have been a bit of what I would call a late bloomer lately, maybe because I was easily distracted by other people and stuffs that I thought it was cool, until I had forgotten that I have my own life to look up to. I had been very occupied till I forgot on how to concentrate and to master in something (was referring to add maths and physics specifically), and I thought I was off from the SPM topic.

You see, SPM is what I am living for actually, for now. Well, the thing is, I know nothing of what to become in the future. Of course, who does? Unless if you're a psychic or something. So, that's when your dreams come in. Dreams will lead your life, as an aim of who you will become or do. I've been dreaming a lot, before going to bed, in the shower, when i'm all alone in my room, but honestly, i'm too afraid to 'dream big' because I'm too scared that I will be the one who will be getting disappointed if I could not achieve my dreams. Being to think of that situation beforehand would cause of what I am now. Indecisive.

Now, i'm getting to sound like Kyle, monologue-ing by himself, self-explanatory the world. I just wish I could have his brain. Or maybe a part of it would be more that enough. Not that i'm not happy with mine, but the character of him in the drama series was all too good to be true. I'm sure that there are some people in this world who actually have almost the same characteristics as him. All-rounder. Genius in Maths, calculus, basketball, art, SUPER hearing, sight, concentration, memory, learning skills, jumping off the roof, not being affected by fire. He even could master the guitar in less a minute. T_T

You might want to check it out.

And here's another video showing when he was first heard the truly wonderful music. He wasn't able to speak properly yet in this video. --->

As a result, this song had been stuck in my mind since then, and since Pn. Evelyn played it during Teacher's Day, it had lighted up my spirit to play this song on the organ I had at home.

Well, that's all for now. Got to go! TTFN :)

Obsession of West

Belarusian-Norway guy, Alexander Rybak, 

American actor, Matt Dallas, 

the British singer, songwriter, composer, Joe Brooks. 

Are they strangers to you? I wish they are cause I wouldn't want to share my so-called imaginary boyfriend with you imaginary strangers :P Hek hek hek.They're the ones who had gotten me heads over heels for the past few months :-D

A.R.

M.D

J.B

And they come from all over the world! :D   

Educational Distress

-Two weeks back-

Exam is just around the corner! I should be studying now. But did I? No I didn't. 

Well, not that I didn't study, I just did not do an 'official going-through-every-page' of my revision / textbook just yet, not until 2 days after the first paper was going to start, which is Paper 2 History.   Yes, HISTORY.

I must have be kidding to myself. Honestly, I have to admit that I haven't get that 'realization' of the fact that SPM is just FIVE MONTHS AHEAD! 

Oh shit! Where have I been? I guess, i've been hooked up with some unnecessary things that i've been picking up myself. My mum kept reminding me to think of MY capabilities because what others can do might not be what you are capable of. 

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-During Exams-

I felt like a dumbhead. Nope, seriously. One of the worst exams in my life. But yes, I'm thankful to Allah of the great memory that he had awarded me because I have actually managed to answer a few questions based on what I have learnt previously.

Being the eldest in the family sure is hard. There was this once, when I absolutely lost hope in studying I felt like throwing the book to the floor. It was really frustrating knowing that others had actually put high expectations on you of your previous achievements and to learn that in reality, i'm actually struggling in my studies. Truly I am even more dissatisfied when my friends, which I think is facing the same phenomena as I am, could achieve higher grades than me to my dismay. I mean, how do they possibly do that?

-The End Of The Never-Ending Fretting Life Of Liyana-
*I really deserve a slap on the face +_____+

A Diary Of Mine

You, with your words like knives and swords and weapons that you use against me
You have knocked me off my feet again got me feeling like I'm nothing
You, with your voice like nails on a chalkboard, calling me out when I'm wounded
You, pickin' on the weaker man

Well, you can take me down with just one single blow
But you don't know what you don't know

Someday I'll be living in a big old city
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Why you gotta be so mean?


You, with your switching sides and your walk-by lies and your humiliation
You, have pointed out my flaws again as if I don't already see them
I'll walk with my head down trying to block you out 'cause I'll never impress you
I just wanna feel okay again

I'll bet you got pushed around, somebody made you cold
But the cycle ends right now 'cause you can't lead me down that road
And you don't know what you don't know

Someday I'll be living in a big old city
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Why you gotta be so mean?

Progression

It took me about.. 3 hours?  to "Upgrade" my blog until finally finding some satisfaction out of it.

Meanwhile listened to Dagdrøm which means daydream in English. Yes, by Alexander Rybak. Who else could it be? And good news is, His channel had finally updated something (at least) rather than repeating his old songs (the last post from his channel was about a year ago) and wondering how he looks like right now. Luckily he still looked the same, with the same haircut and hair colour.

So currently, I am still being a pendulum bob at school. Still drifting in the ocean of homeworks, nevertheless I sometimes never care less to even look at them. My lazy attitude. Without realising, there goes the due date, as well as my formative marks. Honestly, I envy them who constantly getting involved in lots of activities, especially during school hours but can still keep up with homeworks. Sigh. Not just that, they also can be so responsive in class yet charted high marks for their exam results.

So, come on all of you out there, let us try harder and make sure that it is the hardest and give our fullest shot during SPM!

Bak kata formula fizik :   Force x Area  = Pressure

Force : Efforts needed

Area  : No. of Subject

Pressure : The pressure u'll get in limited time

Actually I ran across that statement before in an article, so I just hentam what it says. Couldn't actually remember the the exact words but hope you'll get the point :D

It's 4am! I don't want to get wrinkles!! D: No, please, not at this age.

*Adequate sleep is vital for the facial skin to rest between 10pm-4am in order to prevent stress that can cause wrinkles to the skin as a side effect in time to come.*

-Sudden burst of knowledge, like Nonny from Bubble Guppies from Nick Jr :)

I watch cartoons lately during the past year, thanks to HyppTv lah and Fitri's behaviour of controlling the channel

I wish I could bake PERFECT macaroons.

Enough Bragging, Good Night, Sleep Tight :) To myself, #foreveralone

Beta~~~ Gusti Puteri.......

To Do List:

• March Test
• Kawad -Renjer Puteri
• Crew - Puteri Gunung Ledang
• Finish up Homeworks
• Do Revision
• Gathering - Renjer Puteri
• Ready for Mid-Term